heart.

=.

day two.

you shouldn't have to recover
the day after
the day after
new years eve.

i don't eat ham,
but her dinner sounded
good.

day one.

i lost myself again
in the haze
of transforming back
from scorpion
to jenni.

the best way
to not feel like
shit
about anything you've done
is to completely separate
your one self
from the other.

that,
and admitting to yourself
that
it happens.

new years resolution.

i don't believe in such things,
everyday can hold with it a new resolution,
even if it's just duct taped on it.


however, i resolve to write a poem every day.

yes it is the second, i have failed already.
but i'll give myself a second chance on this second day and catch up.

just for now.

i lost it again,
that mind
and that will
to write again.





always comes back.

discoveries from the world of the lost.

losing your house key is easy,
losing your alcohol is easy,
losing your way is easy,
losing one sock is easy,
losing faith is easy,
losing weight,
is not.





the world of the lost and the obsessions of the lost;
ghosts of christmas past and present united, unfortunately.